Dear Alex Puppy,
I just wanted to write you a tiny letter to let you know how ineffable this weekend with you was to me. From the moment I saw you when you came to pick me up with the car, I knew I was in heaven. Even though only four days had passed since I had last seen you (compared to the months we used to spend apart), I still felt as strongly as ever that a part of me was missing. And when I saw you, I simply lit up. Everything was perfect again, seeing your eyes light up with the same joy I was feeling in my heart. And our first kiss when we saw each other..as perfect as ever and something I had craved for a while. It was a magical, beautiful kiss, and I felt that sparks lit up when our lips touched.
I realized during this trip yet again how little we need to be happy. All we need is our puppy and a tiny place to call home. Luxury and wealth don’t make us happy; it’s enough to know that you have a small bed to share with your angel and some food and water; the rest becomes only a detail when you have your puppy around. I also realized how little we need in another sense to be happy together: I think some of my happiest moments during this weekend were when we fell asleep together. There is just something so special in waking up and seeing your heavenly puppy next to you. Always, in the mornings, when I see you next to me, I become something that can’t be described with the word happy; it is the feeling of forever, angel. I look at you and not only my heart, but my whole soul and entire being, feels this unstoppable need to spend the rest of my life with you. There is no other way, it just is; the same way that the sun dies every day to make way for the moon and then comes back again, that cyclical pattern is how I always feel and always will feel when I see you next to me.
Even when I fall asleep on you (taking a tiny puppy nap), I feel at home. But this home is a new home that I have discovered through and with you. This home is the happiest parts of me, the sweetest memories, and the purest hopes and dreams. That’s why around you I seem to rediscover such memories of my childhood: because I find that so often I feel beyond happy, like a care-free child.
I ineff you, Alex Puppy. You are my everything: my love, my best friend, my joy, my hope, my support. You have taught me how to fight and stand up for what I believe in. You’ve shown me that I can open up my heart and trust. You have given me so much in this life that it is not enough what I can say. I can only show you. I don’t believe in a god, but I thank the heavens everyday for you.
PS: I saved the ticket from the subway and I’m going to put it in the scrapbook. It is the first of many journeys to come<3.